THOUGH I REGRET

I cry of despair

I regret all my actions 

I sin against myself 

I offend creations

And I failed to obey the creator 

His command I disobey 

His forbidden I adore 

I swim in dirty pool

Though I regret. 

I go back again 

Again, again and again.... 

I'm losing hope of forgiveness 

How many times have I sought forgiveness 

Yet I go back to the crime. 

I've always wanted to be good, not mundane;

Worst of them I am

Though I regret. 

It's very bad and I hate it

I keep going back but I hate it 

Had sin had odour

No living being would survive sitting next to me 

I am an adamant sinner 

I tell myself: I hate it, yet I go back

Is it that am feeble and powerless 

Or I willingly surrender myself 

Though I regret. 

Regretting is not enough 

Do I even truly regret? 

Why then do I go back again? 

Am I deceiving myself? 

How will I keep going back to what I hate? 

Or do I, deep inside, love it? 

Do I even know what I feel? 

Though I regret. 

Yes I do 

I regretted every wrong I have done 

Yes, I regretted and I cried  so loud 

Though nobody could hear my voice

Probably because I wasn't shedding tears 

Sins harden my heart and I became tearless 

I regretted doing what I hate 

I regretted being weak and mundane 

I regretted not asking for help 

I sincerely regretted and I hope.

I hope and pray 

That I'll be forgiven 

That I'll become stronger 

That I'll not go back  again 

That I'll cry, cry to my Lord 

That my Lord will accept me 

That my Lord will soften my heart 

Because all I want is to make heaven.